One girl's disappointment is the same girl's opportunity

Okay so I didn't get the job at the UNIQLO branch in London, STILL waiting for some feedback but something really good happened I got a call from a place I really hadn't ever thought would call after so long and have an interview for this Wednesday and then one with another uniqlo branch in Kent on Saturday so...Pray for me! I have a lot of confidence in the next few interviews!

Note to self

Oooooh looking at the pre-collections from the London Fashion Week Designers, I'm really loving Christopher Kane's work his pieces really stand out for me; with that cosmic theme going on LOVE IT! The combined hue of colours is just divine! I'm also liking Emma Cook's collection!

I'm in love

I know I literally just finished a post but after probably a good 20 minutes observing this discovery I had to come back and share this... I was on thefashionisto.com looking at the models to watch section and I must have come across this reeallly cute model urm....Oskar Tranum...Aaahh he's adorable, I love guys with dimples as it is, and he's just stunning to me!! Take a look at him here:

....Haha you're probably like are you serious? Yes...Yes I am, I think he's amazing in a very unique way...sort of like my love for Alice Glass...some dirty habits but nevertheless she's also amazing...

Construction commencing!

I've been thinking about so many things recently, my mind is running off on myself. I can't stop questioning my current aesthetic... I've suddenly put myself under so much scrutiny and I have no idea why...I'm constantly thinking about my weight, my skin tone, my hair, my everything - I thought I was over feeling stupid insecurities but for some reason I feel like I'm moving back a few squares, it's really effected my sleep as well - HOW...I mean HOOW can I be awake at stupid hours thinking about wanting to change my appearance?! It's so embarrassing that I couldn't be contemplating something with more depth than these secondary school issues (as I call them) so I've figured that there has to be a problem.

I'm not busy enough...and that's why I'm here now, doing exactly what I had come here to avoid...URGH! Regardless of  whatever my brain tries to tell me when it runs off on its own I am thankful to God for giving me everything I have.

Moving on I recently had my second interview with fashion retail store Uniqlo >>Website here , I'm so anxious it's unbelievable... I don't want to put myself down because I DID do my research and I DID try my best but wow it's a tough call...from previous experiences I have learnt never to take anything for granted..So I'm just here praying that I am invited back for the 3rd interview and ultimately offered the job. Fingers crossed. Hands together in prayer...I know that whatever is best for me God will do, so I can't bring myself to feel nervous or scared at all...

Rose tinted vision can't fix this

Amber, Amber, AMBER ROSE

What a stunner but ohmygood Lord she did NOT try to recreate that ICONIC photograph taken of my aunty (by imagination) Grace Jones by Jean Paul Gaude ! I just CAN'T put my finger on what's bothering me about this imitation, its really strange how Amber's photograph is set up in exactly the same way as Grace's photo yet it doesn't even come close to the perfection of Grace's photo. Grace Jones' body is (well....was) PERFECT - the arch in this woman's back, the mild contortion of her torso is...UNREAL! Then to top it all this my aunty's skin is just this wonderful smooth dark chocolate...Ah the photo is a dream - She's amazing, She's elegant and effortlessly intriguing....

Flawless Grace Jones

Not so flawless Amber

and then Amber comes along...I'm not going to hate and say she doesn't look stunning but the photo is just mediocre in comparison to the original...They say you can't teach an old dog new tricks but can you REALLY teach a young dog old tricks? Hmmm....Definitely something to think about! I do rate Amber for trying....

It's a f**kin jungle out there....

Woooow just come back from the gym, it has to be one of the BEST feelings I've ever felt for a long time, so strange how just a few hours before I was laying in my bed feeling slightly depressed as I thought of the last two nights. I definitely have to keep this up! I'll lose the weight before I know it! :)


Okay - Anyway did anyone see the newest Flake advert? Isn't it just HEAVENLY; seriously I feel like every time it comes on there's an invisible pair of hands holding my eyeballs in place; I can't take my eyes off it - visually it's beautiful, does it make me want to go out and buy a flake........NOPE, oddly enough I'm more intrigued by who designed the dress, how long it took to make and how it was constructed. Here's the advert, tell me what you think..





Ooooohhhh I geeeet iiiitt, apon re-watching the video could the aura of fragility and gentleness in the video sort of represent the 'delicateness' of the flake bar, like how its made, the curves, the femininity of the bar...am I getting carried away? HA HA! Possibly but either way Cadbury's advertising team have made one hell of an advert - I do wonder of its relevance to the chocolate itself. Oh and the designer of that lovely garment is Anthony Price I'm going to be completely honest and admit that I haven't heard of him before...I will definitely keep my eye out for him from now on, that dress is 200 metres of beautiful! SHEEESH!


Right now the REAL reason for my use of this specific title: Animal Kingdom = Sex
I am honestly convinced that the lead singer of this band has one of the soothing singing voices I have ever heard in my life - it's amazing.

I was on one of my usual indie music blog sprees when I must have pressed play on a sample song...what song was it....Signs and wonders...You know one of those songs which just goes into one ear and then takes a detour into your heart? That's exactly how I felt, they are amazing! So very very talented and I wish them all the best for the future, they most definitely deserve any fame they get. Here's their 2nd single from their Signs & Wonders album, isn't the video amazing?





and here's their website...Click Here


I've got a few Fashion...Reviews you could call them...So I will make sure to write about them next time I blog...I just get so excited when I see/hear something amazing; don't blame me...the blog IS called 'this is my brain' and if my brain is all over the place SURELY I'd have to reciprocate by writing articles according to these brainwaves? Right? RIGHT!

Don't you just love.....

I was dabbling in my own brain again and- once again, experienced somewhat of an epiphany, don't you just LOVE The Gossip?

For those of you who unfortunately have not had the pleasure of knowing these wonderful musicians here's the wiki, no, no, no ACTUALLY...I'll just direct you straight to their official website -> Click Here <-

Anyway, I've been listening to 'Music for men' and 'Standing in the way of control' it's literally a plethora of pleasure and happiness! Definitely a mood lifter for me, Ms. Ditto's voice is definitely doing it for me at the moment; it's like her voice commands your attention- good or bad. I feel that this power in her voice is helped by Beth's persona and her confidence... You don't see many beautiful, curvaceous lesbians on the covers of Dazed & Confused and NME do you? UH HUH. Exactly. I love her! Good luck with The Gossip Beth, I wish nothing but the best for you! :)

Okay so referring back to my earlier excited outburst, I've been trying my hand at illustration and to my despair I haven't really been able to get into it... Could it be that the wonderful talent of Nawel, Connie Lim and David Downton have forced me to put a microscope to my own works and scrutinize them with even more severity than at first? Hmmmmmm... Yes! Definitely, I'm hoping however that this will work to my advantage rather than contribute to my downfall, ha ha I definitely over-analyse my work sometimes so I'm thinking calm down on the obsessing, they do say perfection is found within imperfection....Haha well I say that anyway....

Connie Lim ->Her Website<-

I think Connie's Work oozes sex appeal, the women she creates are always lax and very alluring but in a high fashion way if that makes any sense- I see the seductiveness in their faces but I don't get that trashy feeling- Don't get me wrong I love the trashy/nasty sex face with attitude, I just don't get that aura from Connie's work. Please take a look at her stuff I found her on Dazed Digital, they're always showcasing emerging fashion oriented talent.

I'm all typed out now I'll be back c: